God Is Speaking!

I'm starting to really kick into high gear with my internal healing, I feel like a completely different person than I was a few months ago. God has shined a light in many areas of my life where I need to be more of a reflection of Christ. The oh, so stupid things I was doing over and over again, and those who know me know what those are - destructive relationships, negative self-talk, food addictions, worrying about anything and everything, horrible and yet selfish self-esteem (not sure how I could have both, but I did!) and mainly focused on ME rather than HIM - they are slowly coming back into alignment with God's word and His will for my life. I only want to glorify God in every aspect of my life now - my relationships, both dating and friendships, my work life, my home, my church and volunteer activities. I think the bottom line is now I want to live a life pleasing to God, and that glorifies Him. I was not doing that even six months ago.

So the word God is giving me today is to finish the race, stay the course until completion. In the past, in many areas of my life, I have settled, compromised, and quit when I thought things were "good enough" even when I hadn't achieved my final goal. God does not want me to do that. He put in my heart the scripture Proverbs 15: 32-33 - "He who ignores discipline despises himself, but whoever heeds correction gains understanding. The fear of the Lord teaches a man wisdom, and humility comes before honor." God is working in me to bring me back onto His course for my life, and I must be humble and allow the correction. It is so hard to break those old tendencies and habits. And He wants me to see it through to completion for HIS GLORY, not for mine! He will give me the strength to achieve what He has set before me in terms of a relationship, my physical body, my professional life, the volunteer and charity work He has for me - all of it! Even this blog. I have wished for more people to read it, but God will make all that happen if it's what He desires, and if not, I will still write to glorify Him even if just one person reads it.

It's very exciting, what God is doing. I can FEEL myself changing, getting strong physically, emotionally and spiritually. Another scripture I looked at is Philippians 3:14 - "I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus." I am pressing on, there is a prize at end of this fast! There is a prize at the end of my spiritual journey, and I want to see what it is!

Blogging early today because I have to auction tonight, so it will be a late night. Tomorrow I will be more than halfway. It does not get any easier, some of the food choices get a bit more routine, but I still desire things like yogurt, chicken, butter on my baked potato, that kind of stuff. The prayer focus tomorrow is favor, and the thought of the day is fasting truly humbles you. So, it's a good day to pray for God's favor in my life in all areas, and I hope you will support me in that!