Satan Will Not Go Quietly

Today has been a challenging day. Foodwise, it hasn't been bad. But the enemy does not want me pressing into my spiritual growth and he is trying to do things to distract me. He is causing issues within the house where I'm living, not relationship things, but bringing up emotional trauma in my housemates. He does not want us set free as a result of this fast. I wish I could say more about what's going on, but it would be violating the privacy of one of my housemates, so I will say enough to let you know to pray for all three of us, please know that Satan is harassing us here. Then I had an issue at the gym, I ran into someone from my past that I never expected nor wanted to see again. Luckily that person did not see me, or there would have been some kind of confrontation. But it made for a not very pleasant evening at the gym.

Then earlier today, a guy I dated a while back tried to connect with me on LinkedIn. Again, I just wasn't expecting it and it brought up a whole bunch of memories. It wasn't that long ago and I've tried very hard to put it behind me and move on, but you know, it's still painful sometimes to think about him, and to think of what might have been between us if things had worked out differently. It was really just an odd set of circumstances that drove us apart, we never really even said to one another after 6 months together - let's break it off. I never really got closure for the situation. To be honest, I never really knew what was going on and he never gave me the decency of an explanation. That's made it hard to move on because I don't really know what happened with him, he won't tell me and apparently we're no longer speaking - except on LinkedIn, of course. So to have him just pop up out of the blue many weeks later, it threw me a little.

I spent a good two hours today in worship, and another chunk of time in the word. My friend Leslie sent me notice about an all night worship and teaching seminar from 10 pm - 4 AM. It looks so good, but I have to work Sat so I'm not sure about going on no sleep. Who knows, though, I may end up doing it on the spur of the moment.

I learned one important lesson about my food today - if you make the tofu smoothie, the banana is a critical ingredient. I ran out of bananas so I didn't get one into today's smoothie, and it wasn't very good. It tasted OK but the texture was weird. Note to self, tomorrow buy bananas.

Nothing much on the job front, I do have a date Sunday that I'm kind of excited about. I attend his old church, he moved to the other side of town and now he goes over there. So he's coming back here to go to church with me. But all in all, I do think some down time would be best for me, so I doubt anything will come of this. And I'm actually OK being on my own for a time, I need to heal and focus on myself, and work on becoming the kind of woman my future husband will want to be married to.

I can tell this middle part of the fast is going to be hard. The beginning it was new, you were getting settled into a routine, but in this part it's not yet the end game, so it feels rather endless right now. When all that happened today, I would have killed for a piece of chocolate!

Tomorrow is Day 9 and prayer focus is family. Please pray for my extended family, Ramona and Jessica, who I'm living with. Also pray for my Mom, brothers, my sis in law, and my two nephews and one niece. Ok, kids, we'll do it all again tomorrow.